I can't get it out of my head

I spent all day today thinking about the universe. About particle accelerators and photons. When particles collide, they annihilate each other, disappear as light, and new particles appear out of nowhere.

Destruction/creation- the dance of the universe. There is no death on a very real scale. It's something that’s utterly ludicrous for us to be afraid of. Anyway, contemplating this in my kitchen, I suddenly get cold and grab a hoodie. In the pocket is a pine cone I picked up from the woods. I hold the pine cone and marvel at the beauty. Mathematics really is the language of the universe, that’s no joke.

The number phi is amazing and all over your body. The universe is reminding me that we are all shapes. Geometrical patterns that vibrate at different speeds. Pure energy with tendencies to form patterns. Some think our dimension just happens to vibrate at 9/10ths the speed of light.

Thinking of this makes me think of black holes in a whole new way. What was once frightening to me is now becoming beautiful and exciting. Particles are speeding up to the speed of light and seemingly going out of existence. I absolutely believe they could be doorways into other dimensions.

This thinking also seems to lend credence to 2012, when we'll be aligned with the center of the Milky Way where a huge black hole lies.

Help me Obi Wan Kenobi, you're my only hope

If I had free time, I'd build an engine that runs on water. It can and is being done. With my ideas of time changing so radically lately, it seems ludicrous to say "if I had free time", but there you have it.

Reading about these water engines had me thinking of shapes and the universe. This reality is all geometry and shape. The patterns of basic elements and the way they bond together...cell replication....shapes, geometry, mathematics.

Mostly empty space, with energy flashing in and out of existence. This makes me seriously consider the possibility of the universe being a hologram of some sort. We may very well exist in a hologram of another existence. I can't help but think of Star Wars here. But if anything, I would assume that it would be a hologram of our own doing.

Dimensions seem clearer to me when I think of the spectrum of light and outer space. So vast and empty...yet not empty at all. In a hologram, any one piece contains the whole. This correlates to the mystics who say the kingdom of God is inside you. We don't necessarily need to explore "out there" with machines. We only need to turn inward to find the same answers.

We are blind to most light. If the spectrum of all light is a yard stick, the amount we can see with our eyes is less than a half inch. It makes sense in terms of a "low level"....slower vibration...dense. But we only go up from here, into a new "stage"- a higher frequency. Becoming more and more aware. Just because we can't see something, doesn't mean anything in this light.